Just recently, I saw the movie "The Greatest Showman". The music was inspiring and I left the theater feeling like a dreamer again. Ever since I was little, I've wanted to change the world, to travel as much as possible and to help those in great need. I've always been a dreamer. I wanted to … Continue reading To you, the dreamers.
Author: aglader
To the parents without a happy ending.
Before my son was born and throughout his short life, I would often search for inspiring stories of people with only one arm who conquered a sport or children with visual impairment who still made their dreams come true. I wanted my son to be the inspirational NICU story, who beat all the odds, and … Continue reading To the parents without a happy ending.
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First Christmas in Heaven
Oh how badly I wish this was your first Christmas with us, instead of your first Christmas in heaven. Although I can imagine the worship in heaven can't even compare to ours down here. Spending Christmas with Christ himself would be better than anything I could give you wrapped under the tree, but how my … Continue reading First Christmas in Heaven
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The Fire Inside
After you go through suffering, really any type of significant suffering, I think all of us just want to know that what we've been through matters. That every tear we've cried and every ache in our heart, won't be in vain. That the death of our loved one wasn't for nothing, that something good or … Continue reading The Fire Inside
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The Fourth Pallbearer
Planning Joshua's funeral was horrible. No one wants to think about planning their child's funeral service. All the decisions, all the expenses, all the talk about embalming and caskets. It's like planning a wedding except you only get a week or two, you are in a cloud of grief and shock, and at the end, … Continue reading The Fourth Pallbearer
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The night my heart went to heaven.
I've debated sharing this part of Joshua's story. The darkest part. However, my desire is that maybe it can give someone hope that through the unthinkable, they can and will make it through. A few years ago I volunteered for Camp Erin. It's a bereavement camp for children. I had always had a heart for … Continue reading The night my heart went to heaven.
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My Miracle, Joshua Toby
I prayed for miracles for Josh. When we knew about only his arm and kidney, I prayed he would be born whole. When we found out about his eyes, I prayed he would have vision. When we found out about his trachea, I prayed that a solution could be found through surgery. I prayed that … Continue reading My Miracle, Joshua Toby
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10 Things I Learned Having a Baby in the NICU
The nurses and doctors caring for your baby at any particular time, can either make or break your day. We had amazing nurses and doctors. However, I could almost immediately tell which doctors were fighting for my baby as much as I was. The doctors who could tell me the facts while offering hope, not false … Continue reading 10 Things I Learned Having a Baby in the NICU
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Ronald McDonald House
We did a tour of Rocky Mountain Hospital for Kids when I was still pregnant with Joshua. All of the doctors had a heads up about Joshua and the little bits of information we knew about him. On both the NICU floor and the PICU floor, were two Ronald McDonald rooms. These rooms had snacks, … Continue reading Ronald McDonald House
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Letting Go.
Before Joshua was transferred to the PICU in order to save his life, I had never been too worried about whether or not Joshua would live. I knew we had a long road ahead of us with appointments and specialists and more surgeries, but I guess I never let the thought of him dying make … Continue reading Letting Go.
Ashley Glader 